uggghhhh

me and tanner just got into an argument and he got up in my face and started yellin so i pushed him and he cheaped shot me and so i smacked him back right in the face and he yelled at me tellin him to get the heck of of him but said he.... you get the point.
my mom didnt even do anything, she encouraged him and then started yelling at me!
i wish i just had someone to love me like a mom should, i wish i had a family that acted like a family should.
i want to runaway, i never want to come back.
i need help

hmmmmmm

ahhhhhhhh im sooooooo excited all i have to do is pick the dates and im coming to iowa, im coming home to see the people i love!!!!!!!!!!!
im so excited i could pop like a balloon
but ya im going to prom with justin :D
lots of dresses i love but i havent picked one out yet lol

arizona is the closest thing to hell

I hate Arizona with a passion!!! If only things would have stayed the same, the lies said to me runied my life. how could he, i trusted him!!!!!HE MOVED ME AWAY FROM A PLACE I LOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but whatever it looks like my friends moved on and are happy, i guess im the only one stuck in the past

there isnt a day or night that goes by where i dont pray with all my heart to go back, but i guess i dont deserve it enough.

i want things for once just to go right, no more crying, no more depression, no more of anything, lock me into my closet and lead me to my place of death.

Utah Vacation

Here are just a few pics from my spring break!! i went to Clearfield, Utah, my hometown. to go and visit family. my cousins are absolutely adorable!!! i love it

MORP

k so i went to morp and here are some pics to show ya how it went lol

and yes i had a mowhaw, the theme was neon phenominon so umm ya it was pretty much 80's.... and yes they had mowhawks in the 80's

my zoo trip!

so saturday i went to the pheonix zoo for my very first time it was so amazing and i learned i have an undying love for TURTLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they are comin back

we talked last night, just like we used to before everythin happened.........

last night i was again visited by the sweet but yet haunting memory of it all. How my heart bleeds to know that i cant reach out to touch him or kiss him.

i miss him every moment of my life but if im not what makes him happy then i guess i wont ever be good enough for him
i still love him, i cant get over the butterflies i get thinkin about him