MY mind thinks only of him

His kiss so soft and sweet.
his hugs so warm and secure
being in his arms i felt security
i lose myself in his piercing eyes...

i miss him every second of every hour of every day
the burning, stabbing, ripping pain in my chest grows more devastating every day
the tears grow in size and in consistency
i dont eat
i wont sleep
i dream beautiful nightmares of him

I wait for him to return
press play on my life
i teeter on the thought of death
he is my angel of death

My love continues to grow
the pain taking over my entire mind and body
i miss my best friend
i miss the world i was comfortable in
i deserve him

i just lost the most amazing person in my life

joe broke up with me last night. i dont know why. he said he needed a break because he couldnt handle things.

things were perfect i just dont get it

i cant stop crying.

i really miss him. its killin me to know he isn't mine anymore

i guess i never really deserved him. he should have better than me.

Ugghhhh Urbandale High School

so i unfortunately have to go to skurbandale im going to graduate as a gayhawk how bad does that suck???

whatever though i guess it will be amazing bc i will be with megan, camilla, emily, spencer, duncan and lots of other kids i know

Big mamma said im not allowed to get into any fights this year, if she has to come and get me from the school i had be either dead or dying haha. she just cracks me up. but im not going to fight anymore....... well im going to try very hard not to. i cant promise anything bc i have a feeling that its going to get ugly at the football games bc of some old drama issues that haven't been resolved